I wish I can fly, which is so un-realistic please, so I wish I don't fly.

Hello :D Ah. I finally have the mood to blog :D Yesterday damn retarded. Had PE. Run like fck.
If only that thing can cure miraculously, I don't have to suffer like hell running. Arghs. Anyway,
after PE had Geog. Almost slept the whole 1 hour away. But due to interruptions, whatever ._.
After recess got MPW. Went to Comp Lab 3. Grouped with Clifton, Bryan and Murni. Hahas.
Had Maths for 2 Hours. He asked us to stayed back, didn't want to go home anyway, but dun
like Maths :D After school walk around with Kyna. Went back to class, Daryl inside, Kyna and
me slacked with him in class. Then got one cleaner very irritating. Keep coming in interrupt us
talking then he talk a lot of crap. Rawrs! After that went home larhs. Nothing to do also.

Today went Novena after that ate Ramen :P Then went collect something and came home. Haha.
Feel damn restless today. Don't feel like doing anything. Hahas. Came home around 4pm anyway.

Rawrs. Damn tired larhs. Now nothing to do. Online dunno for wad. No mood luhs.

I don't know why, but I suddenly stop feeling like crying since last wed ._. Weird please.

Tired, very tired.

Hello :D I'm feeling so sleepy. Hahas. Morning had English Summary Test. After that Music.
Damn boring, super boring! I hate it ): Recess ate with Priya and YanJun. Mr Wong 15minutes
late for Science, so slacked :P After his lesson went to locker after that went to staffroom.
Raided him for sweets. LOL! He took out a packet of lollipops, so excited but expired 2 years
ago. Wth!? I think he never open his drawer before ._. In the end gave us another sweet, don't
dare to eat. Maybe expired one also. LOL! Hahas :P Went back to class for Chinese late~
Maths last 2 period that freaky teacher didn't come. Went for his check-up again? The class
became damn chaotic. Slacked all the way in class. Damn noisy. Hahas :X Sleepy today siah :X

After school went to canteen with Kyna, Pearlyn and HuiTong. They went to eat, after that
slacked then went to Cybrary. Around 3.45pm or something went to TPY with them to get
Kyna contact lenses. Hahas. Took damn long. 5pm+ took MRT back to AMK. After that went
home. Hahas. Reach home nearly 6pm. Hahas. Feel so sleepy and bored now.

Tomorrow got Chinese Test. Arghs. I don't want. My Chinese sucks. Bye :D

Freak this world.

Breaking myself apart from this world, walking towards an unknown end of life.

Hello. Damn tired today. Hahas. Anyways, it's February already. Sadded. Monday again. Had
Science in the morning, after that English, went to the library to do the crazy fairytale.
Tried to on the computer, Murni got shocked by the electricity or something. LOL! In the end
we realized we have been trying to on the wrong CPU also. That one is Xavier using one ._.

After used the computer to search stuff already then printed it out and went to the table to do.
Doing it halfway then Bryan and Clifton came, they talk and did a lot of crap can. So dumb la
:X After that Recess already. Ate with Priya after that went back to class, late again :D Haha.
Art was the next lesson. I damn guai okay. I drew the whole lesson. HAHAS! :D After art was
Maths. The mad teacher shouted like nobody business. I hate him lah. We fail also not our fault.
He teach until nobody understand luh. It's like, not only me thinks that he sucks, it's everyone.

Whatever, after Maths was Geography. Damn sleepy, but I endured and didn't fall asleep :D
If I sleep is like damn obvious luh, so un-fair. And I sleep cannot wake up so very hard to sleep.
Whatever, D&T had Test again. I didn't cheat okay :D I'm so guai today (LOL!) Hahas! Hope
can pass :D I only know I wrote all the below part correct but 1st question wrong I think. That
one lots of marks ._. Anyway after that went to workshop and sketch only today. Quite slack.

After school walked around 2nd floor, go locker and etc. with Murni. Went with her to band room
to put her bag after that walked round the whole school and finally ended up in canteen :D
Went to find YanJun and Kyna. Slacked with YanJun until 2.45 then went to change. Hahas.

Went for M&D. Feel so tired today. M&D ended at 6.20 or something. Damn tired until no
strength to go home :X Main thing is damn sleepy. Hahas. Went home and ate and everything.
Slept at 7.30pm and woke up at 10.20pm :X Almost 3 hours. Woke up and bathe, now darn
late already. Still need to study for geography, do homework. But I guess I'm gonna abandon my
homeworks today. Hahas! I seriously got no energy to do, maybe just read through geog too.
No choice. Hehes. I very no mood now again. Seriously, maybe I shouldn't try to change my
mood. Just be no mood until someone makes me happy again yeah :D My happy medicine is
sleeping now I think. Rawrs :X Everybody is sleeping already I guess. Hahas. I wanna sleep too.

Eyes damn dry. Anyways, I'm buying my new phone on Wednesday I guess. I feel like not using
phone for few days and ignore this whole world unintentionally :P I feel so tired of being
abandoned, I don't like to switch on my phone. Maybe I should just set it silent and abandon it.

SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING THE SAME FEELING EVERY SINGLE TIME.
SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING ABANDONED FROM THIS WORLD EVERY NIGHT.
SICK AND TIRED OF THE FEELING I HAVE EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!
SICK AND TIRED OF THE FEELING I HAVE EVEN IN THE DAY.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING EVEN BEFORE I REACH HOME. I DON'T LIKE THAT.
FCK OFF DAMN IT. FCK OFF MY LIFE, I DON'T WANT A HEART ANYMORE.
SOMEONE TEAR MY HEART APART AND LEAVE ME ALONE, DEAD.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY FELICIA TEO ♥ !

Thank you for being there for the past 5 years. I love you! Hahas :D

Hello! :D This is gonna be my last post of January 2010! A month of a new year has gone pass so
quickly :D 20 days of school has gone by without me even realizing. Hahas. This month isn't
going very well for me at all. This month is ruining my entire life, but I will endure, and definitely
gonna survive, because I know I ain't alone, I know there are people there for me, regardless of
who you are :D Anyways, Happy Birthday to everybody who's birthday is this month :D

Daryl, Geraldine, Eshane, Felicia, Nicholas. And Yeeling Jie & Hongwei which is tomorrow.
And also, Sungmin, Lee Seung Gi, Kangin and Jaejoong! Hahas! Sorry if I missed out anyone.

Thank you for those who gave me presents and all the wishes :D I love you all. Hahas!

Homeworks and tests coming up next week. Rawrs! I'm gonna do well this year, I swear, I have
to anyways, since it's streaming year and all that. Sobs. I don't want to have to do it. Argh :X

1 side of my back is aching so much like hell now that I can't even walk.
I'm tired but I want to complete homeworks before I sleep since I need to study for tests tmr.
I have lots of depressing moments and I'm getting depression from all the sadness.
Lots of problems and something at home added on to my problems. Argh.
This whole month sucks a lot. Things changed drastically. Nothing went well.

So that's what happened to me currently. Rawrs. I want my LG Lollipop Pink really soon.
Actually can get it today. But whatever, don't wanna say. Actually can't get it at all when today
came, but you know, I'll get it on Tuesday or Wednesday maybe :D Hahas!

On K-POP Hiatus again since 24th Jan :D Shall update myself during CNY. Hahas!
I hate CNY to fall on Valentines day! 14th February is gone thanks to CNY ): But money! :X

Watched Hello Baby Episode 1 just now. SHINee is just too cute! Shall watch Ep2 really soon :D

DBSK, F.T Island, I miss you D: DBSK Break out! :D

Anyways, I'm glad a month of 2010 has went by :D I want to take out my braces real soon ):

January 2010 is a disaster.

Shall post again really soon okay! :D

Succeeded putting the past behind me, but the present bothers me.
I just couldn't take it anymore, I just wish there's someone there, to hear me cry.

Hello (: I'm not thinking of my past anymore, but the present bothers me a lot. I feel like
crying every night but there's just no tears coming out. I dread for the next dreadful day to
come. Don't ask me why, if you don't really want to know why. I feel so abandoned, I don't
know why either. I'm just glad there's some people there that wouldn't abandon me, but I just
feel so '...' I just wish, life wouldn't be so difficult. Fortunately, I won't have to live forever,
I wish I'll die early seriously, not too early thou. Running away from life isn't a good solution,
but it's still better than living everyday feeling so dead. Why not just die, I wonder why I can't.

Sorry for being so difficult, being such a burden in some people life, you can leave if you want.
I'm not going to care about this world anymore, I'm not going to be a burden. I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for coming into some people life, but I detests some people who purposely came into my life.

Anyways, yesterday school was boring as usual. But damn fed up with the Maths Teacher! He
sucks totally and he made me fail my test! He started late and ended when the bell rang. WTF?
What's his problem man. This is so unfair. Even if it's an examination I don't think they will end
before the whole time limit is even up! What's his problem man. I bet I can solve that equation
if he end a bit later. He's so unreasonable. He want the whole class to fail is it? Wtf? RAWRS.
I'm glad he's going for his check-up and not coming on Friday. 3 Period of his lesson. YAY :D

Hahas. Anyways, today school is normal. Had Drama, damn funny luh Drama. HAHA. But
quite retarded also. After that was Chinese. Did Jian Bao the whole lesson. Went for Recess
with Priya, YanJun and Murni. Me and Priya went back to class late 15minutes today.
Yesterday we went back 20minutes late. LOL! Taking advantage of Mr Wong :X Hahas!

Science was Chaotic. Didn't write name and passed up my Theory and Practical, but the Theory
got stolen by someone, bought a new one already. Sobs. Money flew away >< After Science
went out of class to locker. Came back to class Miss Ho walked pass me and caught my skirt ._.
She got distracted so I got away happily. LOL! :X Literature teacher didn't came, YAY!
Completed English Compre Homework with Priya, after that nothing to do. VE went to
Comp Lab for some shit. After that Nicholas and Xavier damn funny, keep searching for
people picture. LOL! After VE went back to class for some birthday celebration. I hate Mr Lee.
He sucks luh. I rather not celebrate anymore la. WTF can. Dunwan talk about him.

After school stayed back for M&D. Went canteen after that damn bored so walk around with
YanJun. Later went to 3rd floor, want to go Kosi-O but then a lot people so went library.
Went to toilet to change, got 2 idiots damn fcking idiotic. Anyways, went to CD Shelter thought
late liao. Everybody reach except us. Then so many Sec1. But lucky not late, is they early :D

Quite slack today luh, cause got Sec1. But still my back want to break :X Only my back thou :D
Hahas. After M&D damn tired so went straight home instead of slacking around :D I hope
tomorrow doesn't come. Hais. Ohya, Thankyou Charlotte for your socks. LOL! :D

Shall reply to tags other day. I have no mood :D Byebye~

Can you even realize I'm drifting far far away from you? Am I really non-existent?

Hello! :D My post looks normal today eh. Hahas. I decided not to care about all the people on
this Earth once again. Drift far far away, I don't care. I can't change some facts, I can't decide
on reality. Reality is something I cannot face, but have to. But I still can't wake up. I'm still
hoping, everything isn't true. I'm still thinking, of my stupid dumb past. I'm still thinking, why
I'm so non-existent. But I can't and don't want to stop myself from thinking this way, because,
I want to be an ordinary human, but a tragedy of an extraordinary :D It's okay not to understand
what I'm talking about. Because I mostly talks to myself. Ah, I shall just cry anytime I want to.
I shall not stop myself. I shall force myself to cry when I want to. Even if the tears doesn't come
out, I'll just force myself to cry. I can't live without crying, because I'm trapped in my own world.

Anyways, today very tired. Woke up at 6.45am. Rushed to school but still ended up being late
for school. Feel so dead today. Very sleepy during geography. Can't stop myself from sleeping
even when I'm sitting ._. Half-asleep thou. How I wish I can just sleep. Rawrs. I was slacking
during Science. Maths was dumb. Fcking hate the teacher. Test tomorrow too. Argh @@
Recess damn bored~ Priya didn't come to school. Didn't eat much. English was okay. Got back
the Diagnostic Comprehension Test. I got 39/60 :D Not satisfied. I want 1 more mark ><

Chinese slacked all the way. Talk to Nicholas, Xavier and XK at the back of the class. I seriously
don't understand and can't listen to Chinese lesson >< I'm so dead. After that change back to
our seats. In class for CC and Assembly and after school rushed for the bus. Run like crazy
with HuiXin for the bus. Hehes. Damn tired. Haha! Went home eat and watch HPTX 12 then
slept all the way till evening, went for Piano and came home :D Shall watch HPTX 13 some other
day. Haha. No time to watch and 14 is the last Episode. Yays? :D There's Maths test tomorrow.
Oh-my-god. I hope I don't fail. Shall burn the midnight oil tonight. Hehes! I can do it since I
slept so much in the afternoon. Hahas. I hope Friday doesn't come. I don't want PE! D:

Now don't really like to online. There's nothing to do online besides MSN, Plurk, Facebook,
Twitter, Blogging and Watching shows, reading manga. LOL! My computer got problem also,
can't even finish downloading one fcking game. Sorry to those people I promised to download and
play the game with @_@ Hehes! There's Microsoft Office 2010 coming! :D Gonna be damn Ex.

Rawrs! I feel like I'm still in 2009. I keep thinking I'm in Primary school just like year. Hahas.
How fast time flies. I'm growing old and becoming non-existent. Hahas :D

Shall blog again tomorrow. Hahas! :D Goodbye! [:

I'll love you, even if other people comes and confuses my mind.

I'm not innocent nor am I good, I'm not a thing you think I am, I'm the worse human.

Hello! (: I'm blogging again. Hahas! I spend today watching TV, downloading songs,
slacking and rotting at home. I haven't done any of my homework. Gonna sleep very late
tonight, I have no choice ): Hahas! I don't really know what to blog about. Hai Pai Tian Xin
Episode 13 is out today. It's the last episode. I don't think I'll watch it until next weekend.
Hehes. I've fcking no time. M&D again tomorrow. I don't feel like going but I need to go. Rawrs!

I wonder when can I sleep peacefully :D I feel like shit. I feel like I'm being forgotten in this
world. The people I didn't expect to remember me remembered me. The people I expected to
remember me forgotten about me. Sometimes I wonder, am I really worse than a Piece of Shit?

Everybody that exists on this Earth finds me when they need me, abandon me when they don't
need me. Ignore me when I need them, give me attitude when I want them to care about me.
Betray me when I trusted them so much. Used me when I didn't think they are using me. I
seems to be existing in this world for these people to illtreat me. It seems like everybody is doing
that to me now. I ain't going to trust anyone again, I said that before and I did that. But I still
trust those people I said I ain't going to trust them again and again! But those people I had never
trusted before, I can't trust them. But those people I swear I would never trust again, I trusted
them again. They made me lose trust in other people so easily, but they became someone I
trusted over and over again. I feel like a fool, and in the end, I got betrayed by them again.

I feel like a piece of shit. Some people dump all their problems at my face when I have so many
problems already. Nobody knows how much problems I have, because I only tell them a quarter
of my problems, I've decided not to even tell a quarter of my problems anymore. I'll just get
betrayed, I'll just get hurt, I'll just get abandoned by this world once again.

Even a friend I thought would be with me forever, my bestest and most trusted friend is almost
gone. That person is now near-to a just ordinary friend. I've lost every trust I have in humans.

Sorry, but I'm serious now. At first, I thought that friend I have will stay by my side forever,
and that's why I kept trusting people over and over again. But never have I ever thought, even
a person like that can just nearly almost disappear. I've lost trust in everyone and everything.

I only have one person I can trust wholeheartedly in my life, and if I were to lose even him,
my life will just revolves around people I can trust halfheartedly. I'll go back to that loner that
doesn't seems to be a loner. People says they understands me, but the understanding that they
gave me, isn't what they thought they understood about me. Maybe like what that person said,
it's true. Ahaha. I don't want to trust this world again, even if I really have to.

I feel like a disgrace to everyone. When I mean everyone, I mean EVERYONE.

There are some problems, that I have to keep to myself, not a single person can I tell them to.
Even if it means torturing my feelings deep inside, I don't mind. I just can cry like fck, which I
know I can't. I can't seems to cry anymore. My tears seems to be dried up.

Sorry, for letting myself being treated like a piece of shit.